Over the last couple of weeks, one of edutwitter’s hardy perennials has been poking its head above the soil once more: schools giving awards for high attendance. As far as I know, this isn’t an issue which fits neatly into the usual right/trad/Gove-left/prog/human split which characterises most such disagreements. Indeed, I’ve seen people with whom I am normally nodding in agreement taking a hostile view towards such awards. For the record, I’m a fan. And to explain why, I’m going to tell you a story.
My youngest daughter, B, is one of the three most beautiful souls on the planet (along with her two sisters). Like all adopted children, she had about as rotten a start to life as possible. She has a number of challenges which she will need to continue to bravely face for the rest of her life. In early primary, for example, she was identified as being in the bottom single percentile for fine motor skills, which means that even today she can struggle with many tasks, and her handwriting is slow and unsteady. Even her speech can be affected, particularly when trying multisyllabic words. Like many children who had difficult early life experiences, her working memory is quite poor. She finds all schoolwork a struggle, although she loves to learn new facts, but she tries her best and works hard. Her teachers, while recognising her difficulties, tend to love her because she is so innocent and friendly, never giving any trouble at all, and always being cheerily willing to help when asked.
Like many children with Aspergers, she doesn’t understand the world, and particularly other people, as easily or in the same way as most do. Girls with Aspergers can often be seen to be trying to learn to mirror the myriad behaviours and nuances and complexities of their peers’ behaviours and language, even if they still don’t really understand them. B does a fair bit of that. Even now, though, she still doesn’t ‘get’ sarcasm, irony or wordplay, and finds all but the most obvious slapstick jokes mystifying. When I make a quip, however outrageous she’ll now say “I know you’re joking, dad”, while looking at me suspiciously. We’ve learned that we have to confirm that I am, in fact, joking, no matter how unlikely the statement just made, in order to put her mind at rest (eg “Where’s mum?” “Ah, she was abducted by aliens”; pause, stare, frown; “I know you’re joking, dad”, “yes B, I am joking, sorry”) .
She is very young for her age, and even by the end of primary school, when other girls were starting to try out the half-understood adolescence approaching them like a train, all B wanted to do was play the same imagination games she’d played since infants. This didn’t help with the social exclusion.
When she was in Year 3, I found B sitting looking out of her bedroom window, clearly troubled. When I asked, she said that she was sad because the other children didn’t want to play with her, and she didn’t understand why. She said she thought it might be because “I have a croaky voice”. It was the first time in my life, I think, that I truly understood the phrase “heartbroken”, as I swear to this day that I felt something internal physically wrench.
Every adult who knows her, loves her. But as we all know, children can shy away from difference. B’s challenges don’t stop her from wanting what all children want: friends. But they do make those friends much harder to come by. While only a minority of children have been actively unkind, most have simply avoided her, looking instead to other children who are more like them. That’s understandable and very human, and they’re in no way to blame for that. Sometimes, life is just hard and unfair and there isn’t a straightforward solution to it. There have been one or two special children along the way who have embraced B as the person she is, and have given her the friendship she so desires. Those children don’t know it, but when I win the lottery, they’re in for a very large windfall.
Because B finds the world so confusing, she likes the small certainties of routine. She simply cannot deal well with unpredictability. Approach B with an unexpected “Go and do X now”, and even if it’s something she has no objection to, she’ll refuse and even get upset. We learned to say “At 6.30, can you go and do X”, and having established it in her mental diary, it becomes part of a safe, predictable world, so she’ll do it with no problem at all. So she likes clubs, like guides or sea cadets. There, where things are always done *this* way, that routine provides her with a security which allows her to participate in a world which too often seems frighteningly inexplicable to her.
So school has always been something of a sanctuary in that regard, with its timetables and uniforms and rules. And, like all children, she has wanted to do well. She joined lots of school sports clubs (but the near total lack of physical co-ordination made that a little tricky), art club (ditto), she’s put herself forward for school councils (lack of popularity doesn’t help there), school plays (can’t sing or dance or remember lines). She’s also always tried really hard with the academic work she finds so difficult, but if you ever want to understand why I am so implacably and vociferously opposed to a system which demands one third of children are classified as “failures” every year, then you don’t need to look much further than B.
B hasn’t had a great deal of good fortune come her way, and most of the traditional routes to “success” are, and always have been, closed to her through no fault of her own. The one area where she’s been fortunate is her general health. That (and very mean parents whose general view is that you should go to school even if you’ve got a major artery bleed) means that her attendance has been very high. And as we approached the end of Year 6, she was told by her class teacher that she was looking at a 100% attendance certificate.
These certificates were to be awarded at the school’s final day, where parents turn up and sit in the playground as their children go up to accept awards for all achievements: academic, sports, creative and social alike. All those areas which were always closed off to B. But on this day, she would be able, for the first and only time of her primary school years, to walk to the front, and be given a certificate in front of the whole school. After all her efforts, and all her clubs and joining in and doing her best, she would finally join her peers in being recognised for something.
We knew this mattered to her, because she kept mentioning it in that slightly off-key learned-experience way of hers. She’d suddenly say, in the middle of dinner, apropos of nothing: “I can’t believe I’ll get a certificate”, and then, because her older and more worldy sisters had taught her that it’s not cool to be too enthusiastic about such things, she’d add “I’ll be so embarrassed”. But she’d say that while grinning. And as her parents, knowing the mountains she climbed every day just to keep functioning, we could see how much that meant to her.
So the day came, and we all sat in a sweltering playground, and listened to the speeches and the songs. Then the awards began, and one by one dozens and dozens of children walked up and had their hand shaken by the head while the parents and other children clapped. All the time, B was sitting next to me, and kept squeezing my hand and saying “I can’t believe I’ve got 100% attendance. I’ll be so embarrassed going up there.”
And then the attendance awards were reached, and the children of each class were called up in alphabetical order. And as it got closer, B got ready for her big moment, straightening her uniform and wriggling excitedly in her chair. Except when her class was announced, and the other children were called up for their attendance certificates, she wasn’t. Her name wasn’t called. We went straight from A to D without stopping at C.
She looked at me first in confusion, and then, as her classmates all moved to one side and the next class was called, with some distress. “Maybe they forgot me”, she said, with the tone of someone who saw being forgotten or overlooked as a normal experience. And then, because she’s one of the three most beautiful souls in the universe, and she felt that she had let her family down somehow, she said “never mind”, it doesn’t matter dad”. But I could see it mattered. I was right back in that room hearing her resignedly accepting her lack of friends because “I have a croaky voice”.
Leaving her with empty words of reassurance, watching as the remaining children were called and awards given, I went to her class teacher and asked what was happening. She looked as confused as I was, and said she’d find out. Five minutes later she was back with an explanation. We were in the process of moving to the Isle of Wight, and the girls’ new secondary school had asked us to take them for an interview/familiarisation day. So the previous week, we’d had to take them down there on a school day. It was agreed well in advance with B’s primary school, but it was unusual because obviously it took a whole day, whereas most of her peers were out of school for just a couple of hours visiting a local secondary for their equivalent slots. Someone in the school office had recorded this as an authorised absence, and removed B from the list of 100% attendees.
No certificate for B. No going to the front. No applause.
If you’re a parent whose child doesn’t get awards or recognition or success, you will probably have half an inkling now of how it felt to see your child have even that slightest chance of “success” denied to them again, and to see the disappointment and, worse, the resigned expectation of that disappointment, in their eyes. I can still feel it now, writing this, more than four years later.
As this was happening, the event was concluding. The “One More Step Along The Road I Go” song had been sung to sniffling parents. Younger siblings were chasing each other around the playground. People were gathering smiling children clutching their certificates and yearbooks, and chatting for the last time in some cases to those they’d been meeting at the school gates for the last 6 years. The caretakers were clearing the chairs away.
I returned to B and had to explain to her about what had happened. Her sisters hovered defensively behind her, knowing what this had meant to her, doing their best to make light of it. She tried – she really tried – to put a brave face on it, but that made it worse, if anything.
I generally don’t name other private people in my writing, because I think they’re entitled to privacy. So when I break that rule, there has to be a good reason. In this case, there is. So step forward Mr Hinds, then deputy headteacher of Balgowan Primary School, who switched the microphone back on and asked for everyone’s attention.
Mr Hinds told the quietened parents and children that there’d been a little bit of a mix-up, and that one child hadn’t received their certificate by accident. Then he asked B to step forward and receive a handshake in front of all those present.
And she did step up to get that handshake. Then she was clapped by the parents, while her classmates and peers cheered and shouted her name. And when she turned to face us, she was wearing a smile which could have powered a small town.
Mr Hinds, if you ever need *anything*. Money, chocolate, a new kidney – just ask.
So this is why I support attendance awards. It’s absolutely true that there are children who, through no fault of their own, can’t achieve 100% attendance. It’s also absolutely true that the vast majority of children through no fault of their own, can’t achieve top academic grades. Nor can most excel at sport. Few are excellent singers, or dancers. Most will never win popularity contests. B, and the many other children like B, never had a chance at success in any of those areas. Yet that’s not a reason to abolish any such awards or prizes or stop recognising those achievements. Rather, it’s an argument to find a way to recognise every child for something. I don’t begrudge awards to the children who are academically able, or sporty, or musically talented. Those children deserve every certificate and every handshake and every round of applause they can get. And so do those who get their awards for attendance. Because it’s not about the award. It’s about the child.
No child is a failure. When we label children as failures, or allow them to think of themselves as such, that is *our* failure, as adults. The world is hard enough for those with few advantages without seeking to restrict any sense of achievement to only those fortunate enough to be blessed with many. So find a way to make all children feel special. Give awards for attendance, art, sport, helpfulness, kindness, neatness, effort, quietness, loudness, anything. It doesn’t matter what. Just find a way.
However we do it, if we have an opportunity to make *any* child feel special, we should take it. Never humiliate a child. Never make them feel isolated, or worthless, or a failure, and don’t support any system which does so. Because every child has a beautiful soul, and every child deserves to know that about themselves.